What's next?

I'm sitting in my room, depressed about finals and my future and life in general, so I decided to go to my blog. And...here I am, 7 months after my last blog! It has been almost one year since I left for Barcelona, starting the best four months of my life. It's hard to say what made it so great; probably a combination of a lot of great people and experiences. I've talked about this with Megan, and we both have the most amazing and content feeling when we reflect on absolutely any event that happened (well, almost any...)! Now I am ending my 2nd to last semester of Jewell, and I still don't know what to do with myself! Grad school is going to wait a few years, leaving me to find SOMETHING after I graduate. What will it be: teach for america? ESL teacher in a foreign country? Nanny some spanish kids for a while and teach them english? Work in Yosemite? Work in Glacier? (I don't really want to be a park ranger...) Maybe start my dream job early and learn to be a whitewater rafting guide? Intern somewhere? I want to do something meaningful, yet I also want to earn some money..really, I just want LIFE to start. I feel as though college has been this dollhouse/prison where I play lots of roles that "prepare" me for my future, while being forced into doing menial homework and losing sleep over papers and tests that aren't going to matter down the road!! I know that I have the control and can do what I want with my life, but I think shrugging off the other expectations of college will help me. These 4 years have been amazing, and I do love my biology courses, and others as well, but I can think of better things I would like to do. I'll be doing some serious soul searching over Christmas break and really try to decide what's best for ME after I graduate.